from my rotten body flowers will grow

Before you get emotionally invested in me, just know that I’m fucking crazy and I’ll probably say some asshole-ish things and then cry when you get mad at me and I have emotional breakdowns all of the time.

pursue the authentic

Life has interesting ways of working.
Hmmmmmm I wish I could read minds. :(
 

Owning your own feelings

So anyway PROMOS are finally over hahahahahahahahahahahaha, I feel this suden surge of relief omg. Its amazing how I was feeling like I was literally gonna die yesterday, but now I feel so dan carefreee heheheheheehehehehehe. The world is a great place.

But I must say, jc life is really something. It has really freaking turned my world upside now and inside out and etc etc I just dont know how to do or feel anymore. I'm beginning to question this person I have become. Seriously.I don't feel like myself, yet I am still the exact same person I was.

I really cannot take the stress. Urgh, well anyway, yesterday before chinese, it was the last day of promos and I was really feeling so damn burnt out I really couldn't take life anymore. I sorta did something that I really really really regret. URRRGHHHH. Now I'm just gonna be thick-skinned and I have to pretend that nothing happened. URRRGHHH screw mood swings. I really hate fucking pms-ing.

AHH my life is really damn pathetic.
I hope tomorrow - wouldn't talk to me.




I feel like this sometimes, eventhough today is supposed to be a HAPPY DAYY hehehehehehee